Just Keep Trying

I stopped using birth control almost a year ago in hopes of getting pregnant as fast as I did with Bailey, which only took about three months. So far we have had no luck, lots of excited moments, but always a negative test result. I haven't really decided if I'm upset or not about it. I've always believed that things happen for a reason and if I had gotten pregnant as soon as I had hoped I would have a new born at this very moment. Can I just say that this moment is the exact WRONG moment to have a newborn in my life! Vince's work is slow and I am in the payment plan from hell to pay off an old credit card, so financially it would be very hard. Not to mention Bailey is a MONSTER! She isn't even two yet and is being a pain in my ass! Don't get me wrong, I love love love her and 75% of the time she is a complete angel. Well behaved and already saying please and thank you, but that other 25% is hellacious! I would be out of my mind if I had her and a newborn all by myself all day.

So, everything is the way it is for a reason. Vince and I will keep trying and try not to stress about it too much. We really aren't even "trying" we are just going to let it happen. Although, lately I have been using this http://www.webmd.com/baby/healthtool-ovulation-calculator ovulation calculator to figure out when I'm the most fertile. Vince is definitely not complaining when we have sex more than our usual once or twice a week during that fertility period. That's this week, BTW, that's what made me think to write about.

This weekend should be fun, we have a wedding on Saturday for one of Vince's millions of cousins. Bailey is going to have her first real babysitter that night. I'm a little nervous for some reason. I mean she goes to daycare a couple days a week and to my sister in laws the rest of the days, but I think it's the fact that it's at at different house and she will be putting Beebs to bed. I'm worried that she won't go down and be a cranky pants for poor Logan. So Vince and I will be kid less for the first time in a LONG time and his mom offered to drive so we can relax and have a few drinks! WOO HOO!

Now, I'm off to think of a subject to write about tomorrow...